I wish I could Love You

Monday, December 28, 2009

i always talked bad about ppl posing in changing rooms.

i just had to try it out.

my first time. :)

i hope i dun get sue-ed.

helped out at the reception during the wedding
some OTHER dude name kok ping. xD cousins friend.

half glass of hennessey makes the blood go round. :D

BOO! mahjong/ cho dai di sessions.

darren, trying to act cute. HAHA.

had supper together with azhar and suprisingly with the LOO. :)

had a nice chat. and left. heeh.

going melaka later.

holy coconut shake-fied.

mwah mwah. HEEHEE

I LOVE YOU MELAKA GANG. :)

you know why la. heehee.

& I just want to be, happy. :)

Jamie Lee
00:47

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Jamie Lee
01:21

* 2 weeks ago , MAHJONGGG!! *

i have some pics from the past week to upload. ANYWAY!!!!!!!!! have been so so busy lately.

MONDAY

KP picked me and we head to monash together with darren . took a little tour ourselves while waiting for lily and boo. monash library is HUGE, with really noisy lifts. *teett* teeettt! * :D got kinda emo when the security guard asked for driving license. *sigh. head off to Louisana for bottomless spag. service, sucked balls. but yeah. had an awesome time chatting away and disturbing boo. didn't we darren?? :) boo and darren came over after that for some mahjong sessions while KP and lily had their ALONE time. :)

tuesday and wednesday.

went shopping with the KK chic * mich seck * for 2 days straight!!! heehee. bought alot of happy happy clothes. definition of happy clothes, buy, and no regret. buy happy, buy happy. :D :D . that woman, bought 2 skirts! anyway. getting to the point. YOU NEED TO STAY AT LEAST 5 DAYS TO SATISFY YOUR SHOPPING NEEDS hello??? :D i miss you already. :)

Thursday

STONED ALMOST THE WHOLE DAY. ironed clothes. xD i was so so bored I started ironing clothes. :) I guess its a chirstmas eve thing! heeeheee.the Godsister came over after getting her )PMR results, haha. had a surprise visit from KP , then azie picked us up to go get some booze. they didnt stay long, heehee, at least i had someone to say merry christmas on the spot. :) and oh, had to COOK for kp. not an awesome meal la, but well. still cook. had him wash the dishes after meal, which was his FIRST TIME WASHING DISHES SO I HAD IT ALL VIDEO-ed. HAHAHAHH!.

Friday

was ordered to stay home, so too bad. went over aunts house in Kg. api-api for a little gathering before cousins wedding. :) my nephew, so. the. adorable. :D

saturday.

ri chard and lai hooi's DAY. my used-to-be-thin-&-hot cousin got married. hehe. and his wife, her bdays on the 7th december. :)

need to stop consuming alcohol, beer sucks now. really can't take anymore beer. yucks.
tmr, will be a visit to mommys sister-in-law. :)
monday, monash.
tuesday, KAJANG DAY TRIP. haha. i know. kajang. XD

i guess you can say its good to keep myself so busy all the time.

I still havent had my pool sessions with al. then with keith.

then meet up with CHIAH & usamah, as promised. :)

then yum cha with my long lost pet bro, wai ken.

then meet up with high school mates.

and an outing with may yi, kenneth, samuel and SHAREEN.*whos been MIA-ing.

need to start planning melaka trip 2 soon. :D :D

BLARGH! goodnight world.

& I don't need to be wanted,

i want to be needed.

Jamie Lee
00:16

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Little by little I’m becoming smaller
The bright facial expression on the disappearing face
I’m afraid that you’ll turn your back and ignore my confession

Laying my head on my needle-like worries
I pretend to sleep though I can’t
Because of the thoughts about you that are more life-like than dreams
In the end, I stay up all night

feels like INSOMNIA.

Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free
I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be
So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear
But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here

Won't you drive away
'Cause I'm no good for you
There's no place
In this place
That was built for you

I would be crazy to say that we were perfect
And sometimes I was wondering if it was worth it
But now I see, how could you run from me?
And everytime I drive by your apartment
I get this overwhelming urge to walk in
And see your face and to be in that place all over again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around and forget, forget about you
Forget about me and you

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cuz I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Somedays I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide, cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this
Oooh, Yeah...

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
Just to hear your voice again
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

just felt like taking bits of songs. :) it doesn't really combine to become some awesome poetry. just bits here and there. randomsity. * no more beer please!!! ><*

All,
will just be a memory now.
i guess I shouldn't forget.
and take it in as a lesson.
its time, to move on.

there's no need to go through so much pain.
no more waiting.
no more pain.
i miss you.
and thats the last time I will be.

& trust me, I wasn't myself.

Jamie Lee
00:10

Friday, December 25, 2009

when hope whispered into my ear,

i felt that a miracle would take place.
then i realized, I wasn't home.

I wasn't where i was supposed to be.
i was , in denial.

not willing to accept what i knew was meant to be.

i couldn't stop thinking about what Hope said to me.
because it hurts. it hurts knowing what you wished to happen was something that was never going to.

something, close to nothing.

at least i still feel the pain,

that big hole through my chest.

at least i still felt alive.

at least i was in control.

all I'm trying to say is

yesterday, i manage to solve uni stuff with my dad. sigh. i broke his heart. I know it. But i was left with no other choice. im sorry I refused to go form 6. I promis i'll make u proud daddy. its so so so hard for me to say this. I really don't want to spend so much of your hard earned cash. but thank you. i love you!! :) I promise i'll never fail you.

its alright to be lost

everything is gonna be just fine.

what a lie.

& sometimes I wish I could turn back time,

just to see the old you again.

Jamie Lee
02:39